Cause we were both young when i first saw you

It still hurts when I see you.

I still miss you sometimes.
It hits me in the middle of the night when I'm laying alone with nothing but my thoughts. It hits me in the middle of math class when I'm working on solving an equation. It hits me anytime it wants to, but it's happening less and less.

You're happy. it's not because of me. I still wish that it was, but I'm happy for you. All I want is to see you happy. You have good friends, a good life. You're learning that you don't need me for your happiness.

I think that this is letting go. I think that this is moving on.

I still miss you, it still hurts me, but it feels so good.

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